i’m hurting. i can’t even talk about the things i’m feeling. i want everything to be okay. i want things to go better than i expect them to. i want to not miss you. i want people to understand how much the distance is going to rip my insides apart. i want to see you as often as i do now. i want the inability for that to happen to be powerless over what we have. i want what we have to stay the same. i just want you, everyday, every second, forever. this is the first time i’m allowing myself to let these feelings out and it feels good. i wish there was somebody i could talk to about this other than you, even though you’re so reassuring and i know you mean every word you say. still, it would be nice if there was someone who saw it from my perspective. no one could though. no one knows what i feel for you. you are my world. i never knew i could love something so much as i love you. i love every second i’m with you an inconceivable amount more than i love any other second. i can’t imagine being away from you. i don’t want to. i won’t.
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